What is happening
to my life! especially today.. I'm trying to get myself
together . last night I told myself I was going to have
a good day. Last night I didn't feel to hot when i talked
on the phone with Val, it wasn't like seeing her in person,
it hurt me. I wanted to see her bad, I went over to her
house yesterday afternoon and left her a note to call
me. I wanted help. I was looking for it, they make me
feel good inside and out. They are my friends, they understand
me. Val had a brother who had tryed to take his life,
when i saw Val she felt sad. I don't want to have my mother
feel so sad, I don't want that, I love my mother too much
to let her hurt. And also there's a possibity that if
I do try to kill myself, there's chances I won't go to
heaven, and then I'd never get to see grandma.. ever.
My day started out terrible, I didn't feel good , my head
was nasia. I go to school part mad at my mom because we
were fighting. (I hope this won't go on, it would be just
like before) At lunch-time rumors were going about my
cousin, Cindy. People were saying that she was caught
taking drugs, and took to jail. I became confused , scared
again and called my mom and my mom said she would call
Helen and see if it was true. She told me in the meantime
to see Mr. Smith and stay in there and find out what happened
and to write. Mr. Smith was going somewhere and he would
be gone. He told me that Cindy was suspended from school.
And that .. Sorry can't write anymore.
Michael R.
Booth
