So Lisa is
not moving up here, so I have to stay with Kelly and Sharol
, forever. Just when things look like they are about to
go up they crumble before they can even be molded.
God! What am
I going to do? I am almost on the verge of going insane
all over again! Sweet, sweet life it is!
I sent Tim
a cassette I made for him. Lorna gave me his address and
phone number. It seems so long ago since I was with him.
I have a strange feeling that I am going to see him when
I am down in SLO. I want to see him so bad, but then I
do not.
Life is so
complex!
I think everyone
is going to be in SLO all at the same time. I used to
think it was wonderful that everyone was all together,
but now the thought horrifies me.
So anyways,
I hope Tim likes the tape. Or he may be angry at me for
not contacting him. I do not know. It seems like forever
but feels like yesterday. Past. Gone, but not forgotten.
Never.
Tim, never
will I forget you, or the feelings that were stirred up
from nothing.
So Lisa is
not moving up here. I will have to deal. I hope we never
lose contact, I love her. Yesturday, the 18th, was our
sixth month anniversary. Unconsciously, I sent her a card.
It just says:
"Yes
Lisa, Yes Lisa, Yes Lisa".
Well, so I
tried to get a job as a manager. Monday, I go back and
go through Sale Procedures. I hope and pray that I get
it. It will be the "going up " process of turning
21. It would be a good start. Long hours, but good pay.
I could go to school at nights. Or whenever. I need to.
Christian will
be coming up this week to SLO. whee! I will deal.
-Dane
