Lot's of time
passed. Most of my time lately has been spent with other
people. I'm finding I'm losing my sense of solitude. Went
to L.A. Monday morning and came back Wed. evening. I took
Greg this time. We went to "Peanuts", a gay
bar, disco, nightclub show, in West Hollywood. Monday
night they had a show. It was drag night. Amazing! Some
of those men you couldn't tell if they were women or not.
Greg liked it and Sarah and her roommate, and her roommate's
boyfriend, Ann and Pat came Tuesday night for "straight
night". Had a great time there. Met a man named Robert.
Good looking, brown hair, brown eyes, etc.
Don't really
feel like writing now hopefully later.
I'm now on
my 1/2 hour. break at Black Oak Restaurant. I'm a busperson
here now. I still work at Jack in the Box too. Not making
much money at either place, but hopefully I'll survive.
Kelly told me yesterday that she is not going to London.
Her family believes that she could not live there by herself
because of her present situation. I'm the cause. I'm so
horrible! A curse is put on to those that know me. I shouldn't
come out of my house, except to work and school. I can't
believe how I hurt people so easily without even trying.
Just something that comes naturally. Kelly will be going
to San Francisco again. Sharol's going with her. Shit!
I feel so godamn guilty. I can't remember, It's so frustrating.
Wonderful life. Because of me I'm losing both Kelly and
Sharol. It's just to San Francisco, but I know how people
fall out of touch.
Breaks over.
- Dane
