"Lean
on me.."
Song comes
to mind thinking about the last few days. A lot has happened,
and it will just not stop coming. I wish it would stop.
One good thing;
(I will mix a little of both)... I passed my NA test at
Sierra Vista, so I probably have the job. Which gives
me a little incentive to go on living life.
I am burnt
out, meaning mind and body.
Kelly called
me today right as I started the test. From her tone of
voice, (hysterical) I could tell there was something wrong.
There was.
Her room caught
on fire this morning when she was in the shower. She heard
the smoke alarm go off. In the middle of shampooing her
hair she grabbed a towel to find her room ablaze!
I can just
see her face and her response. Horrified!
Everything's
alright now, except that she is a lot disturbed and that
her Raggedy Ann doll that her "loved" Grandmother
gave her is gone.
She didn't
want to stay there tonite and wanted to come down here.
I told her that I absolutely forbade it, what with the
physiological condition she was in and it being night,
pouring down rain and high winds.
So she will
stay there tonite with a friend and go to the apartment
tomorrow and clean, then come down here and stay till
Friday. She was coming down here anyway on Wed.
Andy Worhal
died yesterday of a heart attack.
Last night,
some of my friends had a wake for him (Cheryl, Rochelle,
Tiffany, Michael W, and Fred (Michael's lover?) ) I was
not feeling well at all and did not go. I had a horrible
headache that caused me great pain. Today , my eyes still
hurt and have a little headache.
I think I had
my first hangover on Saturday. Friday night, (Yuck, what
a fucking day!) Christain, Brenda, David C. (What a Dick!),
his boyfriend Nathen (What a poor cutie), Lisa, and I
went over to Richard's (The alcoholic) room and drank
Absolute Vodka. White and Red wine.
Everyone became
intoxicated except Lisa, who was a bitch at the beginning
of the night. But so was I, I didn't want people over
there except Lisa, Richard and I. Most of all David C.
Which I found I can only be "conversational"
with him when I am intoxicated. I didn't mind Christian
being there, in fact, I now like Christian. (Which goes
to show that you should never say never)
It turned into
an alright night, morning and it saddens me to say, it
was the highlight of the weekend. Richard made a tape
during the party and he started playing songs by Japan.
He is really a fan of David Sylvian's too. I think Kelly
would like him, but then probably not because he is gay
and because he is a gay friend of mine. She is afraid
of losing me to any "Jack" on the street.
Dream on Babe!
It will mean
my death before that happens. She really knows that too,
deep down, but still she will not take any chances.
To add to my
miseries, I was pulled over Friday night. I thought for
sure they had a warrant out for my arrest. It was some
little traffic violation and they would let me go with
a warning but they said they were calling in to check
on me.
I almost died.
I was clear, though.
Thank Werecow!
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