I am at the
"Cindy's" in Morgan Hill, on my way to San Francisco
to visit Kelly
and Sharol.
This is the
first time I have gone back since I left in January.
Kelly and I
have broken up. We are no longer "boyfriend and girlfriend".
My choice.
A hard choice.
I need freedom,
growth away from Kelly. Kelly and I need to learn to become
stable without being dependent on each other.
Another thing
has happened; Shannon and I kissed for the first time
this early - early morning.
I spent the
night there. We did not have sex. I was beginning to wonder
if he was attracted to me at all. He told me after we
first kissed that he wanted to do that for awhile.
My head is
in the clouds. I think he may like me.
I hope so.
Another subject:
Richard and I are planning to go to LA next weekend. I
want to call Tim, but then... no. I should just let him
go.
What if he
comes to visit SLO? What will I do? How will I react?
All in the
life and times of Dane Michael Cameron. (The Bastard!)
I have not
called Chris
or Lynne for a long time. I need to do something with
them soon so I don't get out of touch. I would feel even
more horrible if I did.
I wish I could
see Tim.
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