I make myself
laugh, the cycles I go through.
UP... down.
It always
goes somewhere though.
If I really
think about it, nothing is lost and all has gained.
So in my
life I am going to school, working, and living life
with Kelly.
We have a nice apartment at 500 Buchanan on the third
floor. I am working at Denny's Japantown. I just stopped
working at Nautilus, a "fine"dinning restaurant
on Pier 39.
I go to school
three nights a week. Monday night is swimming. Wed is
Greek, and Thursday is Psychology.
I want to
be happy with myself. I want inner strength. I need
myself.
I really
did not do anything today. I washed the dishes, started
a book, highlighted my hair, masturbated, slept and
cleaned my closet. Not really eventful...
I thought
about suicide today. I really do not have a choice to
kill myself. I am fearful of myself. I tell myself I
cannot do things and I believe.
I must be
going now, swimming awaits in forty-five minutes.
KALLESPERA!
