Well so today
is my birthday.
Michael
Booth has reached the tender age of 22.
I am now
enjoying cake and ice cream, oh and with coffee, with
a H20 breaker.
Oh, hee,hee,
how joyous I am! Really I do not feel much either way
. It's my birthday, so what! It just means I get all
emotional and almost always become depressed at some
point of the day. (Cake's not bad.)
Hangin' out
by myself today. Went out to lunch with Robert.
Yippee!
All we do
now is be uncomfortable together and talk of nothingness.
But ... today was more interesting. Problems to work
out. I turned into psycho-doctor and Mr. counselor.
I like doing that, I feel more in control.
Robert plays
old.. old games that really get boring... If I become
nice. If I play. I get rough, he doesn't seem to take
it well . Why play games? life has too many to begin
with, without adding more to the mix.
I talked
with my mother
this morning at about 6:30 am :
"Good
Morning, Today is your birthday!.. What is your Birthday
Wish, little boy?" ...
I have too
many wishes to choose even one.
Ahh... but
do I have goals?
Yes. No.
Ponder.
Fuck it,
I am getting older and do not know what to do anymore,
I am not the same person I was last year. The years
are starting to go by really fast now. Do they get faster?
..
I want to
live on one of those islands out in the middle of the
sea where time and days go by slowly . I have too much
to do with my life. So many unexpected interference's
block my stride. But I am such a positive, optimistic,
bright boy! uuuuugh.
Gotta do
something now, young man, you are twenty-two.
So after 22 years can't you come up with something?
Fortune:
self-reliance.
O.K. fine.
What do I have to cut out of my life?
Anything
you decide.
There are
too many sides to me, like my cousin Daniel.
Aunt
Tina called today and we had such a nice visit on
the phone. I need to really try harder to stay in touch
with those that are important. My god, I do have a family,
can I love them?
My father,
the bisexual! Oh, fucking funny!
Kelly
& Michael vs. Patti
& Rex.
Love stories of the century!
Jackie
called too, yesterday, she couldn't call today because
she is a witness. She still wants me in her life! Well,
I love her very much.
