Anyways:
Today my
cold is getting much better. Each day brings the near
end of the semester. I really feel good that I have
made it his far. I have proven to myself that I can
do things in my life. The doors I can open are uncountable.
I talked
with Chris
yesterday on the telephone. He is moving to SF. in June!
I am so happy for him. After all the years he has been
"talking" about moving; finally something
definite has occurred.
This gives
me the opportunity to have him back in my life. Within
me he is already there, forever, but with him living
here in the city, I will have more chances to see him
and share with him my life.
Kelly,
on the other hand, is not happy one bit.
She still
has troubles with Chris. Chris wants to talk with her
and "resolve" problems that have been suppressed.
Or actually I think he just wants to get them out in
the open at least.
Good for
him! ( I see growth in him)
In contrast,
Kelly does not want any of this. No talks, no nothing.
"This
is MY city!" she exclaimed, last night.
We (Kelly
and I) had a talk last night that involved many different
matters, not just Chris' moving up here. Chris' move
just activated the other subjects. (Yes, we talked of
my sexual behaviors and feelings).
I am trying
hard not to get involved with Chris' and Kelly's problem
with each other, but I allow myself to be a participant.
The subject of their anxiety often is labeled on me.
For me, I am tired of the BS that is displayed when
all three of us are present and I will not participate
in it anymore.
More later.
