1:40
pm
Went out
with Kel
last night.
We
ate at the patio cafe. I realized what different lives
we have. She is really into work. (Williams Sonoma).
She's doing well at work, but she's turning into a total
yuppie.
Ah, the material
world once again, eh, Miss Medley?
Again we
talked about my lack of reaction.
Again, I
explained that I react on the inside. I don't wig out
over every little thing, no. I do react inside though.
6:00
pm
Just woke
up from a nap.
I feel a
little refreshed, but I could go back to sleep.
Tonight I'm
supposed to go out with Utah,
Wendy and Dana.
Macrobiotic
Food in San Rafeal.
Today is
going by very quickly. I woke up at 1:00. I spent the
night at Utah's. I love sleeping with him! We couldn't
really do anything because I've had a head cold for
the last few days. I don't want him to be sick now,
too!
I told him
that I loved him and that my love for him seems to be
growing everyday.
It is very
difficult for me to say "I love you" to him.
I'm shy about
it. He is very important to me and I do love him. 
Life is weird.
Daisy Power!
6:30
PM
Hello again!
My, I'm finding
time to write today!
Anyways,
Chris
and I have been getting along very well lately. The
tension is not there anymore.
Let it be
away forever!
So, now Chris
and I have been fighting the fleas that have invaded
us.
The poor
kittys!
We are going
to have to flea dip them this week.
$40 a pop!
Shit!
Chris
went out by himself last night. Yeah!
He went to
the Kaos Club and met and befriended a bunch of people
who run Kaos and Uranus.
Cool, maybe
he can get free passes?!
But it is
cool that he did go out by himself and meet people.
It was his first time and he was very nervous before
he went.
I told him
to have a shot of whiskey and bring a book!
I am looking
forward to school. It starts on the 20th. I'm taking
English, Drama and Painting. I'm really psyched about
painting and Drama.
I want to
be in somekind of production this year. It has been
so long! Anything will do. I just need to get back on
stage again!
I'm thinking
of changing my major to Liberal Arts. I'm already kind
of artsy as it is and I really enjoy the arts.
Who knows
what I could get into?
The people
are definitely more interesting.
I need to
be able to enjoy my life and enjoy my career. What I
need to do is change jobs. I would like to find something
that has to do with art and make money.
Perhaps I
can find a part-time job somewhere and make the transition
slowly, so I don't find myself broke on the streets.
I wonder
if Utah
and I are going to be together for a long time? I wonder
if were going to get married and raise a family?
How funny!
I give it
a year and then I'll ask him to marry me.
Love,
