6:37
am
It's too
early.
Yesterday
I was a jerk.
At Reno,
I kind lost my balance. I became very aggravated and
uptight. I was short with my mom
and could not find the bright side of anything.
My Mom started
to cry when we got home. I felt horrible. I tried to
explain that all these pressures were building up and
are getting to me.
Why am I
pushing away the people who mean the most to me?
Why am I
losing self-confidence?
All these
insecurities are overwhelming me all of a sudden.
I know my
mom has noticed a change in me. She says since Feb.
I have become distant. I don't want her to blame my
change with moving in with Chris.
It's not
that.
It's me.
Too many
things going on at once for so long.
I've got
to take a break. A vacation. Maybe with Utah
(Chris-O)? Get away for a couple days.
God I hope
I see him soon.
