5:14
pm
I don't know
why, but I feel really insecure with my relationships
with people right now.
Not just
people that I meet every once in a while, but people
that I'm close to. I think I'm really having a problem
communicating my feelings.
This
makes me scared because Chris-O
and I are getting closer.
We have good
sex (Even though we haven't really had sex yet) but
does he like hanging out with me?
Sometimes
I can't think of anything to say. I guess it's best
not to say anything at these points.
I wonder
if he thinks I'm boring.
Chris-R
always has something to say. Lately, I think he does
not like being around me. He is very negative and tense
around me. It really bugs me that he always points out
my mistakes at home. It's like he totally gets annoyed
with me.
I don't know.
Everything
is so confusing lately.
I have not
been getting much sleep and I have been losing weight
again.
I think I'm
falling in love.
