10:25
am
Got some
sleep last night even though I went to bed shortly after
12 am.
I had a good
evening by myself. I never made it to the library yesterday,
instead I ended up downtown, a block away from Macy's.
"Well,
well, look where I am! Hmmm. Maybe I should pop in to
see Utah?"
I started
walking towards the door and noticed some employees
from Macys coming out he service door and also got a
glimpse of a white shirt man with glasses and slicked
back hair (sorta like Clark Kent)
Utah Alert!
I stood by
the door and as he walked out, I said hello. He seemed
surprised and happy to see me. We went out for coffee
at the place where we first went the morning after the
first night we spent together.
It is so
weird how he has just come info my life. Of course I
am scared shitless.
Can I fall
in love again?
I am starting
to fight it, but the feelings are much too strong.
There's no
pressure between us besides what we do to ourselves.
I started to cry last night because I felt so much towards
him.
Funny how
I am.
Anyways Steven
called Chris.
They are going out Thursday night. Chris is very excited
and nervous.
"What
if I see him and it's an instant 'no'?"
(Chris and
his optimism!!)
Well, Chris
you are going to find out in TWO days! Good luck!
He has so
much to give if he would recognize it. Insecure with
close relationships like that. It will be good for him
to experience this. It's about fucking time, man!
