6:38
am
The other
night, (last week or the week before) right before I
fell asleep, Utah
said:
" I'm
so happy you are in my life".
It made me
so happy I wanted to cry. I know it's kinda late to
write this, but I wanted to get it down on paper so
when I read this entry I'll remember how it felt.
Last night
I think I caused the same reaction in him. I told him
I was lucky to have him. It made me feel good to say
that to him.
Love... we
have not said: "I love you" to each other
yet.
It's building.
I know when he tells me, I'm gonna just cry with happiness.
I'll probably yell and scream.
I'm getting
more emotional and romantic.
I've got
a lot to write about, so hopefully I'll be back later
today.
(I wish I
was home, right now, with him, cuddled up all nice and
warm in bed).
3:30?
pm
Well, had
a rough day at work. I managed to make some money today
(as I always seem to do.)
"H"
called last night and was real upset. He said he went
back to "T", but now he has met this other
girl, "J".
They've been
going out for about a week now. J seems like she's really
messed up. He said that she does heroin and that in
itself is enough, but there's more.
She wants
to have sex with people for money. He said that she
doesn't make enough money and this is a way to make
more.
He sounded
really upset and needed to talk . What a fucked situation.
I guess T
is remaining open to him and wants to talk it out. She
sounds like a great gal!
He said the
sex with J was great, and that just the night before
they used four rubbers!
Wow!
Anyways,
he says she's a great person and doesn't know what to
do.
"It's
only been a week", I said, "Your head is up
in the clouds and sometimes you don't see clearly when
you first get involved with a person. Watch out, where
you land"
He doesn't
have much experience with relationships. He didn't even
have sex until he was 22.
I know one
learns from being in relationships, but I think this
is one lesson he can skip. I think it will be painful.
It's better to nip it in the bud (butt!) while it's
still fresh.
It's easier
said than done. I know that from Kelly.
I don't want
to see him get involved in a destructive relationship
(even though he says she's not) I just don't want to
see him get hurt.
Good luck
"H", I'm here if you need me.
I love you.
