I'm at Mt. Shasta
right now... looking over the small lake where I was just
skinny dipping yesturday with five other guys. This is my
second day without a cig and I feel really great! I decided
to stop when I came up here... the beuafiful earth... change
of pace... was perfect for me to stop. And Gosh.. well..
I'm twenty-seven and I still want to take care of myself.
It's so peaceful and nice out here... makes me feel like
I'm closer to God... yesturday was an incredible day...
full of laughs.. cries... snowball fights.. skinny dipping...
bbq... hiking... meditation... and maybe even a new love.
I've just moved
to a rock that overlooks Castle Lake... a few thousand feet
drop from here.. I'd say about three... makes me want to
jump over... in hopes that I could fly. I can hear the clicking
sound of some grasshoppers starting to surround me and the
faint sound of the religious - singing thier songs to God.
They certainly can find God here... I have already... several
times as I wander. The wind is blowing slightly and it feels
as if the songs they are singing are blowing way up here...
brushing by my body... including me with their love.
From this rock
I can see all of Castle Lake, the trees and hill surrounding
it.. and Mt. Shasta overlooking her children... I feel so
small right now compared to her size... sHe watches over
everything... the trees, hills, lakes, streams, animals...
she nurtures all her children... feeding and protecting...
I can be small here and let her take care of me...
