7.18.2000 :
reX.'s
hoRRorsCope & moRnin' yaWn!
G R E E T I N G S Sagittarius
Everyone has a good heart and an open mind today. It could be because
your presence makes them feel valued, or because your words carry
the weight of truth and the softness of compassion. You feel safe
among strangers you might normally fear. In fact, you wonder why
you ever worried about them. All people are filled with the glow
of their humanity. Nobody has anything to hide. You might be called
upon to make a speech. Whatever you choose to say, you will impress
them. An acquaintance feels drawn to deepen your relationship.
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10:23 pm
LOL1 . reaDing my hoRRorsCope after the ranTs... today i did feel
saFe with sTrangers.. very sTrange? .. not really.. today.. wHas
thinking about the topic for the nite.. "how we descriminate
withen our own queer community" .. walking around in the castro
today .. i took noTice of eVeryone.. how they looked.. how they
acted.. and talked.. and tried to think of the common bond that
might be conneccting these people.. and then how they could be descrimatory
to each other..
i realized that any community offered empowerment and also segregation..wHich
included descrimination.. it wHas all perspective.. my perspective..
and cause i wasnt really looking at them with wHat they were wearing
as if if identified them to any ummm.. "tribe" or clique..
i became curious about wHy they chose wHat they did.. the motivation..tHey
had.. rather than the sTory i could come up with.. on my own.. isnt
tHat getting boring anywHays.. those same old sTories we have about
people? .
somehow i felt i had a right to get to know these people that were
part of my "queer" community.. hear their sTory .. without
fear of being put down.. because even if it sounded or looked like
it did.. it wouldnt matter.. and it didnt.. everyone that i approached
with my question.. "do you think there is decrimination in
the queer community .. how? " .. could relate.. and there wHas
the bond..
each one of us has had descrimination inflicted on us in some wHay..
and tHat eX.periencce bonds us as huMans..
sometimes ..i just need to remind myself tHat people are huMan
and the fear goes aWay.. and the curiosity begains.. remind myslef
of some bond i haVe with tHat person.. cause .. if i look deep enough..
i probably could find something that made us related..
mann.. im tired.. cleanin' up after the sHow now.. sTack of papers..
that shouldnt be building up in the new and clean "caSa de
lounGe" (formaly known as the oFFice!)..
but im not gonna worry about papers.. im gonna get into beD. with
my loVer tonite..
"the simpsons........"! . heh! .
get some sleep..cause my head still hurts from yesturday.. and
tHat messy nite i had rolling aronnd all sWeaty in the sHeets with
last nit'es lover..
thera - flu...
hope i have better dReams tonite..
i really eNjoyed the ranTs tonite.. something wHas different for
me.. loved having cRaig there..
nope.. he's not a "new sQueeZe".. not a "old sQueeZe"..
like i said tonite ..he's a "sQueeze with a history"..
and it's gReat to be able to hang with moRe of my tRiibe
xx
reX.
PS: sWeet dReams sT. aLlen! . im kissing your eYebrow.. talking
till we both fall asleep..
baCk
to reAliTy reX.
