7.20.2000 :

reX.'s hoRRorsCope & moRnin' yaWn!

G R E E T I N G S Sagittarius

You manage to stifle the negative voice in your head for one more day, but this could be absolutely it. Act as if there is no tomorrow and let your fun fancies fly free. Your drive for success and a vague sense of guilt are likely to ambush you tomorrow. The camouflage, though, that you concoct through your creativity and positive attitude has the power to keep it all away. Make hay while the sun shines and reap what you have sewn. The price on the open market is rising in your favor every moment.

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8:59 am

uP and tryin' to wake up tHis morn.. goin' to moM.'s today.. gonna hang out tHere for a few daYs and visit.. tHought i wHas gonna have the tiMe off .. but will be doing my raDio sHows from there..

need to really see moM.. daVid caMe over nite before last.. my eX. boyfriend from a few years ago.. his moM. had died.. and we got together.. and talked.. cRied.. opened up..it wHas so horrible to see hiM.hurt .. it hurt me .. and wHen i talked to my moM. on the phone yesturday.. i told her i loved her about three different times.. :) aksed eVeryone on the sHow last nite to tell tHeir moM. that they love her.. daVid said something that really described his feelings after the loss of his moM. ... he said something in fRench that i dont remember.. how to say..heh! .. but it wHas something like " a man without his country"..

mann..

i wHas not having a good daY that day.. so depressed.. i guess i have been for aWhile.. yesturday morning sTarted out that whay.. but the day got better.. meet caRlos for lunCh and hunG out with him.. after my computer decided to mess with me.. instead of getting upset.. i just left.. i had too.. so am gLad carLos whas available .. and .. so cuTe.. (you know wHat a boNer i get from laTin men! heh!)

tHe sHow last nite kinda cHeered me up as well.. wierd.. cause i tHought talking about homopHobia would be more negative.. but it eneded up being a real positive sHow.. im seeing a tRend with wHat we are tRyin' to do on reX.'s ranTs.. we can get anGry.. bitch about it.. but it seeMs we also have been takin' tHat aNger and turning into a poSitive tHIng.. and taking aCtion.. defining wHays we can all do sOmetHing..

so.. got to get dRessed soon.. sTart packing.. sPend some time with the kiTTies before i go.. tHe wHay i have been feeling lately.. im really gLad im gonna get a doSe of "moMMy".. heh! . 32 years old and sTill a mama's boye.. fine with me.. i have no problems with wHen "i need mY moMMy" feelings happen.. sHe's there.. for me.. and im luCky.. and not gonna miss any moRe moments.. im gonna make the most of my relationship with her.. sHe and i have the most uniQue and bonded relationship out of eVeryone in my tribe .. sHe is my creator.. my teacher.. confidant.. and many other things.. our bond can neVer be severed... i cant believe how much sHe understands me.. and is really supportive of wHat i do.. i get the sense she is proud of me.. sHe says sHe is .. and wHen sHe says it.. it really hits hoMe..

so gLad im gonna be goin' "home" .. and hangin' with moM.

reX.

baCk to reAliTy reX.