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weD. - november 28, 2000 :

G R E E T I N G S Sagittarius

Ambition continues as your driving force. You have no difficulty staying focused on the things that interest you. The results of your labor begin to appear. Make your own lunch. You might be looking for love in all the wrong places. If you are single, this could mean that someone on whom you have a crush in the working world may not be a great match for you. If you are in a relationship, you may need to work on expressing your love and how to make a connection stronger.

4:24pm

saNta baBy...

puT a weBcaMMer under the tRee...

foR me...

bEEn an aWful good bOye.. (heh!)

sAnTa baBy... so huRRy doWn the cHimny toNite...

dah.. dah..

dat.. daH.. daT..dah.. de daH...

(siGh!) if only i hAd. my tHought of the day sTill activated.. tHen you can hear my torch! heh! .. probably works in my faVor if not heard.. maybe wHispered in person.. not for the woRld to see.. on cHristmas eVe wHen sanTa comes to finally sTuff my sTocking...

"been waiting a long tiMe to meet you sanTa... dont know if you got my letter to you.. iT doesnt matter...tHat list is really not for you.. it's for me.. but i do haVe sometHIng for you sanTa.. soMetHing sPecial.. "

LOL! oH goD.. ! i really sHould be in the poRn industry... i make meeting sanTa into a "cRuise under tHe x-Mas tRee" .. heh! .. not a bad naMe for a moVie either.. :)

haVe decided to sTay home for cHristmas this year... and visit my moM. either right before the new year or after... maybe durrin' .. (we would be in beD. by 10! and miss it... not like i didnt miss anything last year..besides a siCky raGe... maybe he and i can trY it again.. heh!)

but no... im sTayin' hoMe for cHristmas.. mS. coSmos' first cHristmas.. and my first cHristmas without ePs.. i first realized that on moNday tHe daY after..i got home from my moM.'s for tHanks-giving... sTarted tHinkin' about cHristmas 2000...it wHas tHat biTch alley mCbeal's fault..her being all sNuggly with tHe man tHat wHas made for reX. ... roBert downy jR.(i could see hiM. and i togeTher..uggggh! .. suCh a mess we would be!) and he sanG these saD. cHristmas songs... really saD. ... the saD.ness tHat you have wHen you miss someone sooooooo baD. you tHink you will die.. and dont want to eVen participate in tHis sTupid holiday.. where i will feel guilty cause i cant afford presents.. and really would just raTher to haVe my liTTle ePs here again with us...

sHe is gReat fun at cHristmas... gets into all the presents and starts unwraping them.. the presents and the wHole xmas tRee becomes a giant kiTTy playground filled with all THiER toys... sHe got so eX.cited.. and maDe us all laugH with her sQuekin'... and opening up her own giFts... yah.. i do buy my kiTTs presents for cHristmas... (tHIs year they get old toys that i have been hidin fRom tHem!.. heh! .. no.. kiddin'

laSt time moM. wHas here in sf wHas in 1998 for cHristmas.. ePs wHas out of it tHat year.. real gRumpy my moM. and i noTiced... i took a piX. of her being all protective over her presents.. tHat ended up first on the refridgerator.. and tHen part of a maJor iCon... fRamed.. suRRounded by canDles.. her toys.. or wHatever else reX. decoRates the sHrine with to remedy tHat eM.pty sPace... aCtually it's not too eM.pty... cause it hurts too baD... to not haVe anything there... and of course...

i cRied...

remembering..

tHinking of how i looked at her tHat year along with my moM. and noTiced tHat sHe wHas tired tHis year.. didnt haVe the enerGy that sHe used to... sHe had become an old gal... and had tRained kiTTy as much as sHe could to get at tHOse packages unDer tHat sMelly lookin' tRee ..daDDy dRagged in..every year wHen it would get cold... kiTTy got the idea but with her oWn tWist to the gaMe... sHe only wanted the sTrings on the packages... not the sTuff inside them... sHe loves sTrings..like a cHild with a babydoll.. tHat's wHy they are found in each room of the caSa... sHe has her faVorites..and distributes tHem well.. i wonder if sHe names tHem? .. heh! ..

i goT sCared that year... almost two years ago... i finally heard the voices tHat cHris.. keLLy.. fRank... fRAnke... and many others tRied to warn me about... sHe's gonna be goNe someday... but i didnt eVer want to tHink about tHat... as long as sHe wHas alive i had her! .. sHe haD. me... soulmaTes.. foreVer.. we didnt want to tHInk about her leaVing as long as sHe wHas here.. we were gonna tanGo till our last bReathe... wHat a bummer.. tHinkin' about her not being here... right? ..

so tHere i wHas... getting all bummed... realiZing tHat my "baby" .. might be leaVing soon.. i could not imagine wHat liFe could eVen be like..

re-diculious... ! .. liFe without ePs... hoW fuCkin' cRazy...

buT here i am .. almoSt tWo years laTer.. teaRs goin' down my faCe.. so i cant eVen read wHat im wRitin' here.. tRyin' to prepaRe myself for tHIs cHristmas... last year suCked.. oVer all.. and tHat wHas her last oNe here while she wHas still visitin' liFe.. i wHas aWay... with moM. ... makin' suRe my moM. sTill would sTay aWhile and visit! heh! .. been busy jugglin' and tryin' to keep tHings alive.. me included.. although i tHink my soul is a little lost fRom it..

it wHas all too much at onCe..i fReaked.. and haVe been fReakin'... and now tHings are settlin'... im hearing the quiet calM. somewHere down there...doWn the road still.. not quite tHere yet.. but im working my wHay to it... it's funny how the quiet gets louder.. and silence is wHat you will only hear sometimes... i like it.. it giVes me tiMe to tHInk right now.. and to gatHer sTrength ..

to maKe my holiday at hoMe a gReat fiRst one for mS. coSmos... kiTTy.. and eLIza.. and to bRing back the wonderful tHings that i loVed about ePs so much... and see wHat kind of tRadition tRouble mS. coSmos will cReate and add to mY sPecial tRibe celebRating ouR cHristmas 2000 at tHe caSa de reX. this year

i loVe you ePs...

daDDy. (aka: the dude wHo cRuises sanTa under tHe x-mas tRee.. )

ps... geT ready.. for the twelve daYs of cHristmas here at the reX.caM.! sTarting neXt monTh!!!!!

baCk to reAliTy reX.

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