reX.'s
raMbles! . . .
weD.s,
maRch 7, 2001
moRe
bRain - barfs from the non- bLonde. . .
spring is in the air ! .. yah.. we get it early.. i can tell by
the sounds of the sKater-bRos outside my caSa that things are getting
warMer outside.. it's been almost like suMMer these daYs.. hey!
.. sKater-bRos!.. it's alright to take off your sHIrts and do tHat..heh!..
im beComing a dirTy old man! ..
and sPeaking of becomin'
old.. not tHat i have a HUGE amount of eX.perience on the matter..
but tHis man in his almost mid-30's finds new discoveries all the
tiMe..
remember wHen i wHas
talking about tHOse reality cHecks of the 20's tHat now bounce in
my 30's? ..
well.. meet noSe hair
reality cHeck ..
i found a few .. veeeerrry..
long noSe hairs stickin' out of my noSe like tHere wHas a hippy
parade goin' on in there.. ! ..
fuC.! ouch.. ! .. it
hurt wHen i pulled them out.. and thought.. how my medicine cabnet
has evolved as i have gotten older.. and wHere wHas i goin' to put
those nosehair clippers?.. something eVery good man in his 30's
i guess should have ready for tHose suprise noSe hair realilty cHecks..
eeeeeeeee.... shiVer!
..
seeM.s
almost like old times . . .
haD a great cHat last
nite with the reX.chatter gang .. felt like old times.. and have
been goin' in there more.. have set times that i usually pop in
there on the cHat enterance
.. around 9am and 5pm PST..
want to tHank.. geRo..robin...nomad
... flash ... billo ... pdxer ... tim6969 ... vegan ... dkj and
anybody else i missed wHO showed up .. you totally made my nite..
and wHas wonderful to cHat again .. and feel the old vibes.. comin'
from our cHat..
tHe
other tRibe. . .
and i did mention last
nite in the cHat tHat i wanted to get to arozona? .. maYbe even
move there for awHile? .. cRazy? .. leave sf? !!!..
tHere's a bigger story
to just leaving.. im not running aWay..
in faCt i feel like at
this point if i dont cHange my perspective and dive into my sPirituality
that im gonna lose it.. im done like a prisoner here.. and want
to give my little soul a good dose of fresh perspective..
part indian here.. and
researchin' my daD.'s side of the family to see wHat kind.. im suspecting
hoPi.. and some research leads to that.. although it's just speculation
right now.. i sound like an investigator! ..uggh! .. but feel like
i am.. i never knew anything about tHat side of my family... not
tHat i want to contact my aCtual father or gRandmother.. i think
i will leave them alone and my issues with my faTher not being around
are at a calm right now.. i dont want to dig it up.. although im
afraid im gonna have to redefine that soon as well..
i want to research tHat
indian part of me.. maybe by looking back from wHere i come from
.. even before i whas even here.. i might just get far away from
myself .. to get eVen closer..
now.. figure tHat one
out! ..heh! ..
lauGhter.
. .
im ligtin' the laughter
candle tHat a "good - souled" man sent to me wHO's dealing
with being gay right now.. coming out to himself.. and gathering
sTrength to continue to come out.. it's a never-ending process..
but one that allows us the privilage to look inside.. look at our
honest feelings.. and realize wHo we are.. and then define ourselfs
for wHat we understand..and eX.periece.. without limiting ourself's
to the world's definitions... but redifinin' wHat world believes..
through faith.. whatever tHat faith might be..
i ramble.. but can feel
his search along with others.. and mine are right there along with
them..
ok.. let me light this
canDle and . im gonna say a pRayer for all of us..
(yah! .. i pRay!)
Reiki
Energy cHarged candle
Laughter
Fragrance:
Orange, Lemon, and Lime
Color: Sparkling Iridescent Yellow
Herbal
magic Candle
Candle Affirmation
I
will the energy contained within
this candle to heal, harmoniZe
and balance my (our) being.
I see the brighter side of life.
Bring the laughter to the heart and
soul for my (our) healing and happiness.
May light and love surround and
protect me In all my (our) endeavors.
I will it so... So be it...
xx
reX.
take
it to realiTy...
