reX.'s
raMbles! . . .
saTur.day.
noV. 10th 2001
G
R E E T I N G S Sagittarius
Is
someone trying to talk you out of something, or are
you doing it all by yourself? When the Moon is in
it's current Sign, it's easy to get stuck on reasons
that may not even exist. Sagittarians like to point
thier arrows skyward, but sometimes gravity takes
its toll. Everyone is unusually impatient right now,
which doesn't make things any easier for you. Despite
all of the obstacles, it's still best to talk about
this now rather than later.
(
mann.. im really feeling the "gravity" right
now.. i feel eX.tremly heaVy right now.. and faCin'
many obstacles that make it hard to even raise my
aRRow to the sky.. )
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a
tiMe to cRy...
11:16 am
im
feeling so down right now...
.. it's hard
to eX.plain.. it's like i have been in a denial about
my feelings the last couple of weeks.. and it's all
catchin' up with me..
i didnt want
to get up this morning.. wanted to stay in beD. again..
like i did yesturday.. draw the curtains .. stay in
the dark.. and try and disapear from the world.. do
the cosmos "invisable" aCt..
i had been
feeling so sTrong these last couple of weeks.. more
happy than i had been in a long time.. and alot of the
heaviness wHas not felt.. i think it all built up and
now like a pimple about to burst.. im about to pop.
i haVe fake energy and even though i have been eating
.. i lost about 4 pounds in the last couple of days..
fuC.! it must be stress.. or something.. im feeling
like a ruined man..
gonna go
to my moM.'s friend julia's to work in her yard.. at
least that will be constructive .. and love to do tHat..
i wish i could stop these tears that keep coming ..
i guess they have been building up lately and havent
let them out.. there is a time to cry and then a time
not to and try and ask myself if it is neccesary.. and
try and stop it.. right now.. i have no control of them
again.. like when i first got here..
for some
reason im drawn to LA.. and think im gonna find a wHay
to get there.. what i will do when i get there? .. i
have no idea.. like my liFe .. there is no plan. it's
a day to day eX.perience of emotions.
