reX.'s
raMbles! . . .
moN.day.
noV. 5th 2001
G
R E E T I N G S Sagittarius
Instead
of staring at the joke teller with a blank look on
your face like you usually do, you're among the first
to get the punch line. The Cancer Moon injects you
with a big dose of knowledge, and the timing is perfect.
It's easy for your friends and colleagues to notice
that your're the deep one these days, a whirlpool
of murky brilliance and strange connections. Bookmark
your findings for easy review. Even if no one can
follow you, the least that you can do is to leave
a trail.
(
is tHat like a sNail tRail? .. heh! inject me caNcer!
you are one of my most faVorite signs.. and am not
sure if im getting the punCh line.. maybe just the
puNch! lets sPike it with some reD. wine!.. )
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a
gooD. year? blimp...
3:55 pm
tHe
goodyear blimp just passed...
over tHe
baKo heart hospital where i just left my moM. sleeping
in eX.am rm. #8 in ER. im sitting now on the curb in
the handicap zone outside puffin' my marlboro.. sippin'
the free coffy from the lobby .. watchin' the air filled
commercial momument turn into a little dot in the horizon
- headin' north - toWard my old home .. i wonder wHen
my eX-fellow sf bRo's and sisters will see it. i have
always been told there were two goodyear blimps - it
seems that they gave em' a facelift - a different design
using blacks and yellows instead of the last century
grey. it's funny how everyonce in awhile i will see
them float over the sKys above me... and how i remember
- "oH yah! - tHere's the goodyear blimp" and
then look aWay and almost instantly forget about them
until i see them float overhead again.
oH wowo!
it's coming back tHis wHay! maybe it will float down
- pick me up and take me hoMe? or maybe it's telling
me i need to head in a different direction ...
aGain.. i
had dreams of moVing last night - wHenever I have dreams
these days and ones i can remember - it's about moVing
from or to a hoMe ... it seemed like i wHas moving with
my moM. in a new place with cHris my best-fRiend who
lives in new yourk and hiS. family. we all were about
20 years younger like we were wHen cHris and i went
to high school together... we were moVing to a small
town and for some reason the place both families were
moVing to seemed to be like geNe's house... we were
eX.tending the house out to the sTreet and i had been
working on this addition with cHris' family before he
finally arrived - wHen he did show up with all his stuff
i felt ashamed .. for not talking with hiM. for so long.
He stood shakin' his head at me.. as if he wHas telling
me how silly i had been for eX.cludin' hiM. from my
life - tHen we went to "our" rooM. and kissed
- and made loVe silently - so our parents and his brothers
wouldnt hear.. again the "secret" wHas ours.
daMn! there's
the blimp again! it's circlin' around me! and now at
an angle bRingin' it closer to the ground - i dont think
i have eVer seen it so close to the earth... maybe baKo
is one of it's "resting" and "refueling"
spots like it's is for me?
just pulled
some kind of bugg out of my coFFy... like i had mentioned
before.. wHere-ever a living or dead cRitter can be
- it will be eVerywhere here in baKo! saTurday... when
i wHas cleaning up from our garage sale - i went to
take a sip of my new vice and found several floating
buggs in my glass of reD. wine - the discovery made
me look wHen my wine - "crunched"! yuC.! heh!
i hope i
dont end up floatin' dead here in someones liQuid -
would rather be one of the liVin' critters.. or better
yet after a rest and refuel a moVe - onward - to my
neXt destination - like my long-time buDDy the blimp...
i need to
go and buy some more sMokes and see if the doCtor has
come yet to see my moM. we think sHe will go home this
evening - and even though i yearn and wish for my own
privacy - being alone in her house last nite wHas spooky.
we must be very careful of wHat we wish for ... cause
life... like a maD. geNi locked up for centuries in
his dusty bottle will gRant us with a " i didnt
mean tHat" reality...
and like
in reality sometimes we only get one wish.
