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caSa de SLO..
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seX.y claus! .. aka: saNta
hey you seX.y
white bearded daddy.. !!!
hope you
dont mind this letter after so many years of not wRiting..
i know you have plenty of letters to to reaD around
this tiMe.. but fiGured since i haVent wRitten you a
letter since i wHas under 10 .. that i should get back
in touch with you and let you know wHat i would like
for cHristmas..
actually
alot on this list doesnt have to be delivered this cHristmas..
since we talked last i now have a gift acceptance program
that allows me to accept gifts anytime of the yeaR!
.. cool huh? ..
by the wHay
i do remember the last time we talked.. i musta been
about 6 or 7 at JC peNNys in san luis oBispo.. wHen
i last had been on your lap .. telling you my dReams
and needs.. it's been too long since we have had that
between us.. and now that im older.. those needs and
dReams have cHanged.. (tHank you for the bionic man
that i asked you for by the wHay ... wHay back wHen..
i remember eyein' it in the toy seCtion at peNNys before
visitin' you to make sHure it wHas wHat i wanted!),,
you will be happy to know i still window sHOp before
i ask..
well kRis..
bud.. iM. older now .. turned a fresh 35 just a couple
days ago.. doesnt tiMe fly? (just like you!).. and you
would tHink that i would be over you by now.. you are
probably used to that from grown ups..
but you have
to understand.. i had heard as i got older that you
dont eXsist.. that you were made up.. i remember discoverin'
tHat from my moM. around eaSter when she finally told
me about the easter bunny.. i put two and two together..
and figured out tHat you were in that saMe circle of
that egg hidin' bunny.. and you became make-believe..
something i started to lose faith in as i got older
.. and as i became "saNta" for others..
but you know?...
i have been tHinking about my liFe alot lately ... faced
with many things that are important.. so much has gone
on since we have talked.. (i can send you my webpage
URL along with this so you can cHeck out what has happened..
iT has a webcam to help you discover if im naughty or
nice.. and have different seC.tions for those things)
anyhew!.. i have thought about so many things in my
liFe.... my relationships..through the years.. my accomplishments..
my failures.. the tested truths that challenge' my faith..
and beliefs tHat makes me evolve and sometimes mutate
the wHay i think about my purpose here.. my satisfaction
and wHat i hold as "precious liFe gifts" and
how i value them.. alot of my standards for happiness
has cHanged dramatically in just the last couple years..
i am gRatefull for that all that has happened..
in the last
year i found myself coming back full ciRcle .. my returning
to slo-town.. central coast birthplace ...paso robles
born.. but i think we had our best times with you and
cHristmas when i lived in tHat tRailer with moM. with
babycat.. jo-jo.. lucy.. suzie.. hazel.. wHen i truely
thought you were real.. do you remember when i heard
you on cHristmas eVe that one year outside.. and then
saw you with your bags?!!.. i knew i caught you .. even
though moM. and my cousin jaCkie were laughing at me
..saying it wHas the garbage mann.. ..nah.. i knew it
wHas you..
sLo-town
is where we last met.. but i left my birth home and
went up noRth to discover and live my 20's.. tryin'
on this and tHat to figure out who i wHas .. tryin'
out many beliefs... had been away for such a long time
and thought i had lost my concept of "home"
wHen i lost so many other things.. but here i am saNta..
back home for the time being before i prepare myself
for my neXt adventure.. leaving a place .. but never
the feeling.. and coming back here has introduced me
to things familar but removed.. does that make sense
saNta? .. am i sCarin' you? .. i bet you dont get too
many of these.. heh!
you know
wHat i believe now saNta?.. i believe in "home"
.. a sPiritual one.. one that livesin my heart.. soul..
even if im not here where my birth home is.. or in san
francisco where i feel i have made my home there from
so many years of growing up done there...even if i dont
have a home.. physically to call my own.. i have my
biRthplace.. the quaint uniqueness of this california
small town right between LA and SF.. to remind me that
i caRRy home everywhere..
.. things
were different when i came back from san francisco after
a quick stay with moM. in baKersfield.. i wHas amazed
wHat eVolved while i wHas gone.. but quickly learned
that wHat they eVolved from wHas familar to me.. and
that some of the old stuff .. is still there.. and in
me.. and like me .. eVolved..
wHy am i
stuffin' your sTocking with all this claus?.. because
i want you to know that i still believe in you.. i have
always believed in you.. and found out that i even though
i wHas sWayed by the "cover-ups" that you
were made up and eVen propheteerin' tHat lie myself
while tryin' on some different beliefs .. deep down
i still couldnt sHake you.. cause i know you have been
still giving me gifTs even when i stopped visitin' you..
you have been a sHy old white bearded mann~! ..
i have a
gift for you tHIs year that you can sHare with your
tRibe.. the elfs.. mRs. cLaus..even the eaSter bunny..
(mann i need to wRite hiM!!!..) i have sHared the giFts
you gave with mine tRibe.. and reconized some of those
gifts as something that made me come full -circle and
wRite to you..
heRe's your
gift...
i sTill believe
in you..
i have regained
faith in you..and not from a cHeesy cHristmas sPecial..though
i love them..
i know that
you cant deliver everything i want.. but mann.. just
knowing that you are there.. and i can ask.. makes this
a very sPecial cHristmas..
so.. baby
claus.. (dont tell the mRs. im flirtin' with you)..
can i come back on your lapp?.. tell you what i want
for cHristmas.. and the next years dreams? ..
are you reaD.y
for me to pull out my list? .. cause it's a biggy!!!.
and it's gRown as i have over the years.. and think
it's gonna get longer.. but you will noTice it's a little
different from wHen i wHas 6 or 7.. so please saNta..
for goodness saKes.. make shure to check back here a
few times the next year to see what i need.. i know
your off-season time is better to hit you up on this
stuff.. but at least maybe we can work on some of these
together..
love you
.. saN.ta.. so glad you have you back..and back on your
laPP.. you .. along with the other familar things that
i believe in again.. are gonna make this cHristmas and
new year sPecial for my 36th yeaR..
peaCe to
you ..
xx
reX.
ps.. ive
got my reX.mas wish list.. all i have to do is wRite
it out for you here in the next few days... dont worry
about giving me everything.. or anything from it.. it's
a pretty big list.. but i wHas wonderin' wHat i would
wish for right now in my life.. and it's pretty interesting..
i know you will pick the perfect gift for me.. you always
do..
A
huge wave of inspiration comes over you and suddenly
you have an urge to stop everything and create. You
couldn't stop the ideas from flowing right now if
you tried, Sagittarius. Imagination combined with
your past experiences inform everything that you say
and do. You are a virtual fountain of knowledge and
thirsty students wait in line to take a drink from
your waters. You have your pick of the offers and
invitations that are coming your way this evening.
