reX.'s
raMbles! . . .
fRi.day
feB. 1st 2002
G
R E E T I N G S Sagittarius
There
are important differences between obstacles and detours,
and you need to make yourself aware of these differences
soon. You may get the blues when someone responds
with a decisive 'no.' This doesn't mean, however,
that they're neither uninterested nor uncommitted,
only that they have other needs to tend to. Work on
being an accessory rather than the center of attention,
and a team player rather than an individual star.
Don't be afraid to give someone else the spotlight
when they truly deserve it.
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In a relationship,
Love is immeasurable. You either love someone or you
don't. It is a waste of their time and yours if you
find you don't, but you continue to act as though you
do.
365
reaSons for a parTy!
- fiRst anniversary
of the order pRohibiting juKe boXes! (thank goD. for
internet raDio! heh!)
- reX. goes
on the roAd to las veGas!
oN
the roaD. to las veGas! ...
9:47 am
iM.
bReathin' in the last of the baKo frosty air ...
at leaSt
for the weekend.. im headed to las veGas tonite.. with
toB.y and some of his fRiends..
am i late
for the paRty? .. heh!
there wHas
a gathering of webcammers and folks that i wanted to
meet at the begining of the year and month.. where i
just couldnt do it.. cause of money and where i wHas
at with handling and reconizing ".iT"..
im getting
aWay from ".iT" for the weekend.. but im sHure
it will tag along in ".iT's" wHay.. but im
relinquishing conTrol right now.. to the degree of lettin
".iT" bugg me so much and keeping all together..
im not together..
i lose it.. and regain it..
but more
and more .. im learning to handle it..
so this weekend
is to just go..
go into something
new.. introduce new things.. new people..
meeting funkmunk
and GC while im there.. havent met funk before.. but
wHay eX.cited to finally do so.. that canadian has taunted
me so much on instant message to the degree of having
to have a "realiTy" with him..heh! ..
im gonna
try and let go this weekend.. and hopefully return with
that ingrained in my mind and actions when i get back..
wHen i do
get back.. it's back to dealing.. handling.. and letting
the feelings come.. as they will naturally.. i wont
try and control them.. i will accept them for now..
i need to..
i cant contRol
it anymore.. i can only recieve what is real.. and feel
it..
i am envisioning
myself now.. getting stronger.. knowing myself better..
knowing where i come from .. what has happened.. absorbing
that.. and then looking at where i can go..
tHIs is a
gaMble higher than any stakes i have seen in las veGas..
and heading down that roaD. to las veGas tonite will
be my first "roll of the diCe" to see what
comes up.. and play that roll to my neXt hand that i
will deal with ".iT".
viSions
.. is
tHat "ghost" look neccessary in the morn?
.. cant
wait to get on the roaD. tonite!
.. wowo!
.. they got nakid people on the the weB now? !
.. what
am i gonna do with this mess of a head this morn?
.. a closer
view of the "cold sore that took over" ..
.. goes
along with the "hair that went out of conTrol"
.. look.. yikes!
