2:29
pm
moM.'s baCkyard - baKersfield, CA
baCk
in baKo aGain!...
...wHas
hard leaving sf yesturday cause i knew for sHure i
wHasnt gonna moVe back - yet - anywHays
iM.
gonna make a moVe this suMMer and talked with daWn
this morn about definately coming to S(an)L(uis)O(bispo)
this summer.. so many reasons wHy sLo-town would be
a good place for me right now and eX.cited to finally
make a decision on my next big step. as baRbara striesand
sings .. "goTTa moVe" .. and moving back
to sf inst what my intention is .. i cant "go
back" .. i need to go back further.. back from
wHere i started..
i
realize this more as i have spent time here with moM.
and eX.periencing more of who i am .. rather than
what i am.. there is an interier vs. exterior feeling
here that gives me focus now.. i face that real person
inside and his dreams .. i think i have a better cHance
at those dreams and starting again from going back
with my life eX.periences that i now have.. something
i didnt have when i wHas there last..
it's
sort of like going back in tiem but knowing everything
that will happen if you chose one life path direction..
this time i get that benifit and experience of already
eX.periencing one life direction.. several actually..
and now coming back .. and start in a whole other
direction..
daWn
need help there with her resturant . there will be
other work for me as well.. baKo is only 2 hours away
and i will be in the middle of california.. wHere
i can get to LA or SF .. easy..
im
looking foRward to going back to my oCean hoMe.. and
hearing those waVes that were familar wHen i first
started out.. and eX.ploring my options .. i cant
wait to hear what they tell me now.. something i know
that they have told a million souls already.. and
i feel like it's a secRet.. how cool.
i
wRote quite a bit at the oCean and it's beaches as
a teenager.. and look forward to collecting my ideas
and wRiting more.. with the waVes influence.. and
negative ions influencing me.. daRing me to be creative
and produce.. i have outlined several potencial writing
projects to see what i can acomplish .. to see if
i enjoy wRiting as a possible next direction.. i dcided
i wanted to lean boteny .. while in sf as well.. my
fasination and passion of plants could only be enjoyed
more if i studied this a little more.. its as personal
thing.. wbut wHo knows? .
wHile
in saN. dieGo.. i hope to visit an indian canyon..
that has been just opened to the bublic after 30 years..
iM. hoping to get more confirmation and insite by
this place and maybe inspire me to research more about
nati9ve americans and heritage..
keN.
is meeting me in baKo tonite.. then we leave tomma
.. spending the memoral holiday there.. when i get
back i sTart the plan to moVe.. it's time.. barbara
is singing and got to take her lead.. and advice..
one this one..
goTTa
moVe! ..
