8:41
aM
caSa de SLO..
dReams
have been heavy lately...
maybe
i dont remember them all .. but been wakin' up in the
morn and the middle of the nite.. emersed in them..
like
im tRyin' to remember last nite's dReam.. it's so close..
but yet cant grab on to anything that would trigger
wHat it really wHas about.. something about moving again..
i think..
or is
tHat my realiTy? .. heh! .
geNo's
visit is gonna be good.. i know.. it's gonna inspire
me to concrete my plans of moving to cHi-town..
havent
seen him in so long.. my twin.. my bRo.. need a good
doSe of hiM to recHarge the reX.liFe battery in a different
wHay then i have..
i realize
that i have been in sLo-town for a purpose.. sorta like
therapy.. taking baby steps until i can make bigger
ones.. and have more confidence..
coming
back here has taught me to be grateful for wHat has
happened in my liFe and to look forward to more adventures
of my adulthood and older years..
i have
had time to cover myself in a security blanket here..
and feel saFe as i heal.. and come up with the challenges
from inside of me that tells me wHat needs to happen
next..
i still
feel the loss.. but am dealing with it now.. and absorbed
in wHat i do have in my liFe.. and wHat i would like
to see apended to it..
the hurt
aint gone.. it never will be .. as long as i breathe
my breaths.. but it will evolve as i do in the person
that understands why we must hurt.. why we suffer..
and come to the powerful understanding of why these
are some of the most important things in our liFe..
along
with the other things we eX.perience.. they all go hand
in hand to give us the opportunities to eVolve..
lets just
hope it's not a mutation.. heh!
5:26
pM
reX wRites...
ok..
after all that..
my tests
are normal!.. yay! .. QCT test for my bones said they
are sTrong.. nothing to worry about here.. just another
sCreening they recamended in about 3-5 years
t-cells..
(immune system) went up to 605.. gReat news..
viral-load
for HIV went down about 3,000 and is now 16,700!.. yay!
..
tHese
last two test results means that i can continue my homopathic
approach to my HIV and dont need to take any anti-HIV
meds.. really gReat..!
and testostorine..
yep.. im normal.. about 521 is my count .. more on the
high level being that the norm is 200-900..
so all
is good with tHe recent tests.. and im sHure the eX.tra
attention in the last few weeks to my health and suppliments
is gonna pay off..
still
gonna cut the coffy.. although im really relieved that
it's still available to me.. and not a thing of my lost-past..
siGh.
tHanks
you guys.. for hanGin' in there with me.. for cHecking
back.. for asking the results..
for ..
being
here..
love all
of you..
xx
reX.y
Nothing
can lift you out of a bad mood like a full social
calendar. Your social situation knocks on the door
and asks you to come out and play. Accept any invitation
that comes your way. Look for opportunities to have
fun around every corner. There is more to life than
your career, as good as you may be at what you do.
Enjoy the company of people unrelated to your profession.
Tonight, you have the chance to meet someone you've
admired for a long time.
