8:05
aM
caSa de SLO..
iM
fightin' off something nasTy...
tHis
morn again.. i woke up nausiated.. dRy heaves.. and
sWeats..
charming
huh? ..
nites
have been very uncomfortable for me.. wierd dReams..
not getting settled.. or comfortable.. waking up several
times..
tHIs morning
i wHas really diZZy.. and not in a bLonde wHay.. my
head is hurting.. and am tiRed from not getting the
rest i need..
tueS.day
i stayed home from work .. but im deturmined to get
there today.. i haTe sTaying home being siCk.. and feel
like im not gonna give into this.. im fightin' it off..
...but
it's a beautiful daY here in sLo-town.. the fog burned
aWay early and it's suNNy and waRm.. our "iNdian
suMMer" is in full sWing.. and putting eVeryone
in a good mood..
daWn has
been aWay at a retRet with her faMily since suN.day
so the houSe has been eX.tra quiet.. with just me ..the
kiTTs and panD.y..
keN.
called me last nite from sf.. and wHas so happy to talk
with him.. i havent seen hiM. in a long time.. he told
me my namesake and his sister were getting real big..
and they were so happy there.. sounded like keN. wHas
happy with them as well.. i love it wHen tRibes eX.pand
with beasties..
alot of
people he knows are leaVing sf.. he wHas dissapointed
tHat i wHas moving to cHi-town instead of back to sf..
but eX.plained to hiM. that moving .. eVen in the cold
winTer wHas wHat i needed to do.. for myself.. for my
kiTTs.. my moM. .. eVeryone i know.. to sTart me on
my tRail again.. or at least take conTrol of it again..
i
wHas so eX.cited to get the news about my test results..
the QCT came out fine! .. so did my viral load and t-cell
counts.. and tHink tHat while things are good.. and
may they always be.. i sHould take this as another signal
to move.. move my life in a direction that would give
me opportunities i need for the next few cHapters of
my liFe..
i want
to put myself out "there" again..
sTop reserving
myself so much ..
and be
the healer .. liFe note-taker tHat i wHas meant to be..
paB.lo..
would you be as so nice to turN the neXt paGe?..
and hopefully
be tHere? ..
If
you can't see where you're going, you will have to
rely on your other senses to lead the way. Echoes
can easily help you to determine the size or emptiness
of your space. If you find out that you're all alone
here, at least you'll be able to concentrate. Even
when others fail to come through, you'll always be
able to count on your own strength. Besides, being
able to count on yourself is probably one of the best
survival skills a person can have.
niTe!
