8:30am
sf cab
ridin' the
bumps of the sf road to the airport right now.. i cant
wait to see the kiTTs! i bet they are really gettin' worried
about when i will get home.. but audrey is there.. taking
care of them.. they enjoy new company.
oN the fReewHay
now and its kinda busy.. i hope i get to the airport in
plenty of time.. my flight leaves at 10am and i arrive
back in cHicago about 4:00pm .. then it's train.. brown
line to bus.. foster.. which gives me a block to walk
. not bad! i wHas impressed with how easy it wHas to get
to o'hare from me caS.a
gettin' near
the airport.. not so bad a trip after all! yah!..
9:55am
sittin' in
the plane now.. remembering that i must relax.. i still
get really tense wHen i fly although it's still much more
managable than it has been in the past. all through my
vacation.. i have reminded myself to relax whenever i
felt tense.. to give myself over to the moment.. to absorb
the "now" and reduce those thoughts that make
me tense.. new eX.periences are always on the agenda so
i want to enjoy them as much as possible
i woke up early
this morn.. about 7am.. ken and i had coffey and chatted
for awhile .. i stayed a little longer and opted for a
taxi to the airport instead of BART.. to give us a little
more time. he seems to be doing pretty well.. copin' with
things .. as we all are.. but i can see the progress he
has made.. he now is together with a boy named kaleb..
they look adorable together and happy to see keN. happy..
kalebs's friend came over last nite for ken's b-day ..
who ended up being cHris from gaybc.. he has moved to
sf and settlin' there.. it wHas a great un-eX.pected suprise
in my last few hours in sf.
i wish we would
take off.. i just want to put on my walkmann and zone
out in the sky with niCola conTe.. maybe fall back asleep.
my head hurts a bit.. i think from the margaritas last
night.. i barely had any.. but tequila kicks my ass..
no matter how much. it made me sleep really well though..
ugeNe has just
announced he will be our "number oNe" the engines
have started and now we are moving.. looks like i will
be "zonin'" soon. i already miss sf.
10:30am
i spoke too
soon.. ugeNe just let us know that because of gusty winds
in cHicago .. that flight landings are being delayed and
we wont take off untill 11am ..
uggH!
hate sitting
here waiting.. patience.. dude.. patience..
a fast-forward
will get you home soon enuff.. i really want to hugg the
kiTTs.. sit and smoke on my couch .. de-compress and then
order some chineese food.. general tso's chicken .. fried
rice and wontons.. mmmmm.. gettin' hungry.. but gonna
wait to eat my little bag lunch until i can get something
to drink.. i should have brought some h20 for the trip..
but i figured i could wait..
i figure i
still can.. heh!
i brought back
another suitcase with me.. mostly clothes that i have
missed and can use.. packed some duckys (although i forgot
the one that geNe gave to me on this trip at his caS.a)
and the journals with a few pix.. i counted all my journals..
i have about 13 of them including my current and the "dreams
& signals" book..
it's amazing
that i have filled so many pages. some things are gonna
be hard to look at and read.. definatly will bring up
things that need dealing.. but as i told my moM. who whas
concerned that i would get depressed reading some of that
stuff.. that now that i am seeing a therapist again..
it might be a good time to start looking at those things
that hurt..
i definately
have captured enuff in the last 20 years or so of writing
in journals to give me an outline of my liFe.. it's a
cool thing i think to be able to look at my liFe through
those journals.. all those moments caught..
im tired of
waiting.. im definatly hungry now.. maybe a nibble of
something .. i can hear the cute guys sitting behind me
eating .. i already scoped out who i would do my "were
goin' down!!!.. last kiss!".. convenantly sitting
behind me.. two of them!.. white and black dudes.. yumm!
.. noW im hungry for those oreos that i left at keN's..
heh! .. im a hungry perv. lol! but at the end of vacations
i get very horny..
ugeNe says
we will take off at 11am .. the engines will start pretty
soon.. but my ass is already goin' to aleep .. yikes!
.. i think this will be a long flight.. "pirites
or the carabian" with johnny will help through this
trip.. engines are starting and i think im goin to munch
on my brownie..
