goin' to the therapist
at 3 for my weekly meeting, we are going to work on the
EMDR technique
.. or attempt it.
last week
I freaked a bit about doing it and put it off because
I wHas sfraid to experience the rape again and those
feelings. I didn't want to go through it again. I wHas
terrified.
I came to
the edge of my cliff and froze. I hit my limit .. that
wHas good cause I'm right next to my fear now.. I am
upon it and am about ready to look the demon directly
in the eye.
from there..
I don't know .. maybe another cliff.. but it will come
with a climb from that last cliff edge i wHas froze
at.. climbing higher and going more and more into that
core of fear..
till there
is a path behind .. and a future in front of me..
