iM tryin'
to fall into and eX.perience "now" .. and
energy cHanges by "maitri":
"settling
down with the situation without looking for alternatives"
been reading
Pema cHodron articles looking for pHiloshophies , techniques
and cooping tools. i feel the need to resurge my beliefs..
and am researching to confirm my beliefs and enhance
them.. i want to go farther now.. i want to apply them
to my life.. i yearn to learn and grow..
You
want life to be more of an adventure than it is. You're looking
for mystery where most people would be satisfied with an easy
explanation. You could find it through heightened observation
or
through a creative reading of the facts. Neighbors and coworkers
would prefer that you keep it real, but they don't have to
know
everything that you're thinking. Ignore the expectations as
long as
nobody gets hurt. Let your feelings play out in a small arena.
If
anything worthwhile turns up in your private state, you'll
be in a
better position to act on it in the next few days. 
