weD . August 24th 2005 From: Gene Sent: Wednesday, August 24, 2005 10:47 PM To: rex@rexsworld.com Subject: thank you hey buddy I'm home and finally all back to normal finally..  I wanted to thank you for letting me stay an extra week. I feel soooooooooooooo good again.. I'll see what I can do about getting back for xmas or sending for you to come out here to spend it with your mom. I love you even more! -Gene   Damn you !!.. For reminding me that my buddy is gone! .. sHame on you! .. for leaving.. !!! kitts and I have been in denial that you have left chi-town.. pretending that you are here.. watching programs next to you... I have even been watching shows that I think that you like.. but damn you! .. you haven't said anything here for awhile.. getting weird having a conversation with you here..  you are quiet.. and im doing all the talking.. heh! .. the usual.. reX. Rambles.. you filter.. but it's funny how you really listen when I think that you tunnin' me out.. cause it comes out later when you talk.. cause.. you .. know me.. and damn you!.. for reminding me that you are not here.. and sending me an email instead of responding with a “ok.. reX. Calm down” from the couch next to me.. and damn you! .. for being here.. with me all the time.. in my heart.. soul.. in my life.. influencing me  even when I realize you aren't physically here.. damn you! .. for being you.. and loving you so much.. and missing you so.. but I prefer my delusions of denial.. cleaning up messes that I make and blaming them on you.. “who smoked the last cigg?”.. “must have been eVil!”.. getting' busy to  make a big dinner and get spiritual in the kitchen with my bud.. yes.. my delusions of having you with me after you have left .. me.. (oh and the kitts!).. kitty wHas sad.. lonely.. not to have her favorite audience member to watch her get cRazy with the red fold-out.. giant kitty toy that I cant bear now to take down stairs.. (how can I reaarange so that there is a special red fold-out alter.. ?) cosMo's didn't have someone to snub and tease.. and pretend to ignore..  actually that is her wHay of saying .. yes.. you are in cool gang.. an acknowledgment and snub is the highest compliment in her mZ. cosmos universe.. and damN you!.. reX. Didn't have his buddy to come home to.. check on his toe.. throw him a pack of ciggs.. make him chili.. run a vacuum cleaner up his ass..  damn you.. for being so eVil.. and making me realize how much I love eVil.. and love you.. .. I had such a good time hangin' with you… and just being .. well.. Us.. I have missed that so much.. But with you and my mom moving out here.. and us getting a big place together.. im ok.. Heh! .. Scare you? .. I dare you..   a touch of eVil of couRse..

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