woke up cRying from an intense dream i just had...
it wHas wierd...
i think i just fell in love with someone that i just dreamt about. God! I'm still tearing up.. i have to write down what i remember before i forget him...
....... tHe dream ..........
geTTing ready to film (project) something in bed (porn?) the person next to me (a neighbor or my current lover?) complained that he had to go to sleep early, so i went to another room to check on something for the film (back-backroom) i saw that it was only a little past 8:30 (early!)
that's where i met the latin...
he wHas hanging out with his friend and he came up to me in a hurry.. upset.
I dont remember exactly what wHas said - we butted heads - the latin yelled at me that i wasnt being true to the film.. and how dare i do something like that without true feelings and with someone that didn't care about me as much as he did..
we fought but there was an intense attraction.. i realized that we loved each other.. we kissed.. made love? doubting that this would last.. i asked where we would be in two weeks..
flash to me running down the street (paso robles main street but with a cHi-town city feel)
im trying to catch the bus... running with the person that wHas in my bed at the first of the dream - we needed to get somewhere..? we were late? i remember lots of people running - lots of traffic - the person i wHas with yelled that the busses were coming - but i kept running - there were like three busses coming but i yelled to keep running - they were not our busses - i kept running and the other person yelled for me.
i felt the busses coming up - it starts to snow - others start running with me - desperate - frantic now.. the sidewalk started getting icy and hard to maneuver - but i do and get myself past the people and the snow...
tHere is a storefront with a broken window and someone jumps through it.. i enter the store door and inside i see the latin again...
He is busy filling bags of merchandise. He is wearing a bandana - i find that he is stealing stuff from the store but people working there are very helpful. I begin to help him fill the bags. He asks questions to the store people about something and they help being very friendly to him. His friend who wHas hanging out with him earlier arrives with a doll and they compare the stolen merchandise with it.. somehow it wHas funny when his fRiend arrived and we all laughed...
i looked in one of the bags and see action figures.. these are the latin's.. he was going to sell them but he must of decided to steal instead.. but for some reason it didn't seem like he was stealing even though he was taking all the stuff in the store..
the latin comes up to me.. kisses me.. passionately.. i give in.. like i want to give myself fully to him.. it's natural. He maneuvers himself over me and i raise my legs around him as we start to make love.. it felt so familiar .. like we had done this millions of times.. and this is where i belonged..
passion..
i ask: wHere are we?
he says: it's two weeks later...
i knew it wHas for a lifetime.. i start to cry because i am so happy in love..
........... end of dReam ....
i wake up here in the resort still crying and then cry more when i realize it's a dream..
he's gone...
but im in love with him!!..
i cry harder cause i miss him already and don't know if i will ever met him again.. know his touch and love...
i feel like my love has been ripped away.. a dreamann that i will never meet.. one that i have known forever (past life?)
i dont know his name but i will never forget that we are together forever... and have been in the past together.. i fell in love with him..
i love him.. he wHas perfect in a wired imperfect wHay
i love him.. i want to be back with him.. find him.. and be that happy in love.. i feel connected still.. but separated and that makes me cry even harder..
