weLcome to a new year! ..
and the first raMble of 2006..
reX.'s raMbles.. the ongoing saga of a mann.. trying to reach the depth of his soul.. manuevering many wHays with the world watching..
watching? ..
it's wierd not having the reX.cam on ..
there is a disconnect that i didnt eX.pect..
and keep learning from the wHole webcam eX.perience..
many emails came in about the cam.. many great words that i take as signs from the universe.. the perspective of many.. making the whole of the words..
... words
...
i woke up very old this morning..
not old in a sense that i had already done what there wHas to be done in life..
but in a wHay where i wHas old enuff..
to do the stuff..
that i actually wanted to do..
im old enough now..
to know many things..
i know truths..
i know dangers..
i know paths and directions..
and have taken plenty of them to
know..
what may happen..
old enough..
to know that i can begin today..
on those paths..
old enough to know..
that i am already part wHay down those paths..
and that im old enuff..
to look back..
and stop..
slow down..
and continue..
old enough to know..
that i dont know..
all that is..
i leave tHat to my twenties..
when i DID know EVERYTHING..
heh! ..
certain doubts have changed..
as have the assurance that nothing will change..
it already has..
it's too late to stop..
look back ..
and stop..
it's too late to stop and say..
tHat's who i wanted to be..
so ..
now..
feeling old this morning..
i knew who i wHas..
and wHere i wHas..
and the begining that had already
begun..
cHeers.. to the new years my friends..
you are my words from the universe..
and a collection of the whole..
you and i grow old together..
now..
and forever..
old enuff..
(enough.. )
to know..
Remember that fable about the tortoise and the hare? It's time for you to operate in slow-and-steady mode. That way, you're much more likely to win what or whom you desire than if you jump in feet first.
