again to crawl out of a hole..
i must fall deep into that hole first..
but remind myself at this opportunity to climb out of my dark space..
that i could sTart digging a deeper hole at this point...
ugggh! ..
new years..
good .. bad.. the ugly..
im looking at it now..
feeling it..
all directions..
still the uNiverse ganG-banG is banGin' away..
now though..
im tryin' to struggle a bit..
resist to urge to give up all strength..
if you listen long enuff..
you will hear
hypocrisy.
all the will to live..
and will do anything to survive..
while destroyin' opportunites to escape the pain..
... meanwhile creating others to self-medicate
... to upgrade the pain..
to such a sTate that
we fall
deep..
deeper
into that hole..
goD.! ..
get me out..
and help me along the wHay to help others get out..
cause i know plenty..
that are in this same place..
i can see them..
feel them..
as they share the same pain..
we all need a fast-forward right now..
a wHay we can go forward without feeling the pain of now..
but no..
that is only a self-med thought..
again bringing more pain..
cause if we don't feel it..
we don't get the muscle to
beat the sHIT out of it..
... fuC. you ...
im anGry now..
and the fire of my sign will pull it together..
timid times
compared to wHat i have been through..
and those
compared to
other's pain..
timid..
.... fuc. you ...
for fuckin' with me..
you want me anGry? ..
fine..
lets see wHat i do with that..
my fiRe..
my siGn..
to moVe
and
resist.
(figh.t back.. )
It's time to pat yourself on the back. In fact, break your arm patting yourself on the back. Your hard work, commitment and devotion to the truth brought about these healthy and positive changes.
