moN.day feB.ruary 13th, 2006 Do you sometimes feel at the mercy of impulses you barely knew existed, let alone understand? It's time to seek out the deeper meaning and the divine lesson of thoughtless (and repeated) actions in your life. (... wHoa!.. wHo be shootin' me the hurtful arrow that they sTole from cupid? .. i sWear this wHas on the heart that i ate...)   "talk about how only moments can cHange eVerything..." (convo with joHn L.) my bellyring wHas ripped from me last night... (owwwwwww!) well not just ripped out - but ripped out partly... (ahhhh!.. ouCh!) i had to remove it the rest of the wHay before it cut into my skin too much... (oh fuc! tHat hurts!) it bled a bit... (faint clammy feeling) but i got it out... (painfully) and now have a mangled bellyring hangin on my corkboard.. that i have worn since i hung it on my body.. (years... ) first body piercin' .. besides my ear... (tHat dont count) and damn wHat this all means... (sore belly) a reminder... as it wHas a representation and a marker of "vulnerability" (it hurt wHen i got it.. and had to heal for a very long time) my body is talking ... telling me i am going soMewHere a marker .. tHIs time.. and at tHis time... be aWare.. how moments can cHange eVerything.. (my belly hurts)

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