8:50am / Chicago
wakin' up in a haze this morning...
started gazin' at the clock about 7:30 .. and about 8:00 thought i should get up and see how i felt...
yesterday i had a tooth removed... from the booth...
right-side bottom-back is bye-bye now...
and damn it hurt.. once the numbness went away..
the dentist gave me some anti-inflamatory meds.. but they dont cut the pain.. only the swelling.. which i guess helps with the pain.. but i needed something to take me away from the pain...
enter codeine...
my friend.. heh!
took some vicadin and that really helped me get through that initial shock my body wHas having from the oral surgery...
the surgery wHas quick!.. i was surprised .. but that ol' booth tooth wHas ready to come out.. and i had so many problems with it the last couple years..
i can't believe i let the pain go on for that long...
i think i also kept a delusion of making it go away by avoiding it.. ah yah.. you can't do that with your teeth...
but damn.. i didn't want to start losing my teeth before i hit 40..
vanity..
when am i gonna learn...
i can't fight it..
it's better to give in to it..
not to be confused with giving up ..
but... giving in sometimes let's you do a reality check...
which i have said for a long time now that mine are bouncing... i have gotten into a 'credit check' for those realities before cashing...
heh!
craig came over and hung out with me.. watched 'voyager' ... and bought me an open-faced turkey sandwich with mashed potatoes... a vanilla malt and jello for desert...
what a bud mann...
i thought i wouldn't be able to eat.. but ended up eating more than half of the meal...
i crashed hard yesterday evening around 8pm to the simpsons... and slept through the night with codeine dreams masking my pain..
today i feel so much better .. the pain is going away .. and actually less than the normal pain i wHas having when the tooth wHas still there...
now i don't have to worry about infections.. which wHas happening to that tooth about every few months.. it will be interesting to eat again.. as i haven't been able to eat without pain for about the last half year...
dum huh? ..
i put off alot of things this past year...
but am on it now...
more awake with my reality now... did the credit check and have just enough credit to get me out of this reality delusion debt i have collected in the past year...
oprah's on... and you know what that means...
mZ. cosmos' at my feet telling me i've rambled enough... even kitty is here joining her message for thier daddy to switch gears...
work on some website designs...
call my mom...
and then go back to bed to sleep for awhile...
im working at cocktails tonite... geNo wanted me to help there and am just doing wed nites at the door to keep me socially active and keep a connection alive with other people..
mZ. cosmos again..
sorry .. gotta go..
