I am in a
state of nothingness. I look, focus my eyes, and see
nothing. No images, paths or future. I have gotten into
a mental block.
All that
I have lost! All that I have worked for, only to draw
back into myself again.
I almost
do not care. I wish Kelly
would find someone that would make her happy. I am sorry,
I have failed in many ways.
I do not
give up.. I just will stop trying.
No longer
stimulating.
Void. . .
. .
I feel this
great loss, but I am doing nothing to recapture what
is right in front of me.
I wish I
could be free!
I have allowed
myself to become enslaved. I am as good as a bum living
in the streets. Lost all hope. Just waiting to die.
My soul is
dying. I am not happy or sad. No in-between. A depression
that leads nowhere.
To be daring
and selfish is what I wanted.
I have given
in to others before myself.
I have been
forced to look in the future, instead of living day-by-day
