And now it
is a whole new year with lot of changes.
Many things
I'm gong through right now are draining my energy. (Plus
not sleeping regularly)
I seem to
handling things quite well, so far. This is supposed
to be a good year. And it has been
The normal
bullshit life things happen all the time, I feel, they
happen all your life. It's just how you deal with them
and what is learned.
Mom
has heart problems.
This is fact.
We both await
test results from the treadmill (stress test) she took
last Friday. Her doctor's office seems very unconcerned.
But then again, us Booth's are very sensitive.
Mom has had
a silent heart attack, sometime during this last year.
I feel so
frightened.
I know mom
is so scared. She has to change her whole diet and not
eat chocolate. It will absolutely kill her, if she can't
eat chocolate. She love's it!
I can't lose
my mom yet. This is surely going to bring us together
and create tighter bonds.
I lean to
her for support, as she does for me her best. Just as
I, as she leans to me.
We have a
wonderful growing relationship.
I am proud
to be her son.
So more about
Kelly
Medley:
Can I ever
get over her? Do I want to? We can't talk or hang out
together anymore. She has her life, and I have mine.
It's so trippy man! Kelly is still in me, I fear forever.
I want to be bitter. Never get involved with anyone
like that again. I cannot live that way.
I'm really
tired, and I got to get to bed.
loVe , kisses,
