6:44pm
HI there!
I'm wanting some Love. It's been awhile since Frank
and I have made love. He never thinks about that with
me. What's wrong with me? Other people think I'm attractive,
why doesn't he? It's really hard to sleep in the same
bed with him lately. I want to hold him and kiss him
and make love. He doesn't think about it at all! Maybe
about other people? Who knows? How can I go on like
this? I won't even touch him anymore because I can't
deal with the rejection. So I don't know what's going
to happen with us. I've tried to talk to him about it,
but then it seems like I'm basing our relationship on
sex. No! It's more than that, but he uses that against
me. I don't know what he thinks. I believe he's bored
with me. It scares me so much sometimes, I want to show
him my love in ways that he won't let me. So, what do
I do? Do I leave? Do I find a lover? No! I don't want
anyone but Frank. I love him. It's gotten to the point
where I've been looking at other men: fantasizing about
them, wanting them. Frank's not even 10% of my sex life.
I don't think that's normal. I see Lisa and Michael
tonight; there's a lot of attraction between them. I
want that. There's nothing wrong with wanting to make
love with someone you're in love with! Maybe I should
just leave and try and forget s.f. And my life here.
The fucked relationships I've had. I don't know, I wish
I could just die!
