2/25/2000 :
reX.s'
ranTs
oH my g0D! . feb is almosT oVEr! ..
we
are wHay into the year 2000...
aRizzona is wearin' her REX shirt and comblin' her hair... im sitting
here ..updating my site... we are getting ready ... to go oVer to
taYler's backyard... hope it doesnt rain! ..yeeeks! .. am doin'
the show from there.. the reX. booth sHow goes on location! ...
for the first time..
very appropriate for it to be in taYler's backyard.. and with aRizzonA...
maGical.. on her last day here.. up early this morn.. before the
sun.. and wishin' the gurl wasnt leaving... just yet..
i think that this city would do her gooD. if she did deCide to
moVe here.. hmmm! .. i can think of a few people that this ciTy
would do well with..
ahhh! .. so.. am a little off today.. and the last couple of days...
health clinic called me up this week.. time for my 3-month follow-up...
time to be tested again... so am doin' that today at 12:30 after
the sHow.. aRizzonA is goin' with me... sWeetie!. to give me support..
i think i am fine.. but the mental sTress kills me.. im a whimp
inside ... eVen though i doent show it on the outside.. am glad
that i have so much in my liFe right now to foCus on.. good things..
to help balance the baD. i haVe been aVoiding issues though... issues
like my health.. and dealing with this other thing... as i deCided
not to become inVolved with anyone right now.. i know that tHis
has been a big faCtor... without eVen acknowleging it... it became
the influence...
tiMe to deal with it... tiMe to wake up to it.. time to faCe reality..
and wHere i have traveled the last monThs..
canT beliEve so much can change in tHree monThs.. even though i
have gained.. i have lost as well.. and wish that the lost could
be extinguished.. but it cant ... yet... gotta follow through...
and wrap up the final ends...
hopefully then.. when i know more about where i am .. i can fully
put this to rest...
mann.... im gonna miSS aRizzonA .. am so glad i had this time with
her..
i loVe you baby..
baCk
to reAliTy reX.
