3.6.2000 :
neW moon on monDay... tHats's what has been on my mind the last
week...
tHe
new moon on monDay..
neW moons symboliZe cHange.. rebirThs.... and can come with a sTrong
power depending on how you look at it .. and how it influences you..
or should i say .. how you let it influence you...
im taking advange of it today... took the whole day off to myself...
today is for reX.y... time to get a little spiritual.. tiMe for
some cHanges.. time for tHat rebirth.. time to put to rest some
of those unsettled feelings... time to go deep into tHose feeling
wHay down there for awhile...
it wont happen overnite... it will just be a begining of more hard
work... but at least im looking at what work is ahead of me... and
setting it up today for wHat work is ahead of me... and wHat things
im gonna leave beHind.
quiet weekend for me.. just hung out around the caSa... wHas rainny
all weekend.. so it wHas perfect to stay in... fell asleep on my
couch again this sat.. becoming a norm for me... something really
compforting about my couch of sHame...sleeping there all nite..
withthe kitties wieght pinning me down... feels so secure...
i almost snuck away again to his house last nite... it's a hideout..
a place i can go right now to get aWay.. to eScape... his lipps
make me melt... his eYes.. sMile.. compfort me... and to be filled
by hiM. is pure estacy.. that no dRug could compare... most of all
it's the snugglin'... and sleeping in each others arms... boDies
melting into each other... our sculpture is too perfect..and wake
up with his smell .. which lingers all day to remind me... i find
myself thinking of him too much... my seCret lover... he's mine
right now.. nobody elses... and im being selfish.. but it feels
so good..
but have to keep my mind in balance.. remember reX. you need a
break... a boyfriend right now is not wHat you need.. remember the
neW moon... reX. remember the cHanges you need to make... the boyfriend
will come.. maybe someday... right now.. i haVe some really great
friends.. my triBe who cares very much for me... my kiTTies... who
are my sTrengh and poWer ... dont get carried away...
but i do loVe his sMile..
toDay i faCe the monSter... that has haunted me the last few months...
i will go face to face with it .. and take what comes... and with
that .. no matter what.. make the cHanges i now know i need to make...
reX.
ps: eVerybody toniTe .. take a look at the mooN.. take advantage
of the feeling it caN giVe you toniTE.. make your oWn ritual in
your head.. or hoWever you want to do it or feel compfy with it..
just take the enerGy tonitE .. and make it yours... and into anything
tHat will giVe you enerGy to make a cHange in your life... or wHatever
you need toNite...
remember .. i will be looking at that moon and so will million
of others.. lets all connect.. let our enErgy collaborate... and
make it eVen stronger... think of me.. think of your loVer.. your
friend.family.. pets...the people in the future you will meet..
. . all looking at tHat same moon.. energy put up there.. energy
coming back down...
ahhh i raMble..caN you tell my 2 blonde brain cells are up tHere
floating with the moon? just look at the friGin' moon tonite for
me.. will yah!? heh! ..
i put a message up there for you.. let me know wHat it tells you..
baCk
to reAliTy reX.
