reX.'s rambles

november 4,, 2000 :

11:16am

it's saturday morn... actually thought all day yesturday wHas sat for some reason.. cHris is here...thank god! havent seen him since cHIcago awile ago.. he just traveled over to asia and now stopped back here in sf before he goes back.. i dont tHink im gonna let him go back.. i need my best friend right now..

and sPeaking of best-friends..

happy biRthday geNe! .. my buddies birthday is today and hopefully we are all gonna go see cHaries angels... and then maybe go to fRitz.. the dj cafe here in hayes valley.. a very cool place that replaced mad magna's.. which wHas very hip as well..

ahhh.. and tonite im gonna be on the air again with john for the gaybc teletHon... tryin' to save the station... and my job.. and the voice of the Glbt community..

tHings have not been good lately all around.. am scramblin' for rent.. and now since my site is hosted with gaybc.. if they go down .. rexsworld goes down.. i dont have the money right now to even purchase hosting space ..

been depressed.. but in a better wHay that i have been in the last year... at least here in this depression state.. im excepting.. im absorbing wHat's goin on.. im dealing.. and that's better i think then just ignoring .... or avoiding.. have had so many things hit me in the last year.. i feel beaten up... .and now.. i have taken some timeto heal those wounds... and see wHat kind of damage im dealing with...

i have been silent to alot of people.. people think that im stopping.. but really .. im resting.. i want to get strong again.. while im here hitting bottom.. i should at least look at how i got here... take a breather.. and then get up again...

i havent been writing alot here lately cause i have been dealing with my real reality... and plus i havent had a lot of good news to sHare... but want to surfice again.. maybe if my site shut down for a bit .. that would give me time to decide what to do with it.. give it more of a proirity... i dont know..

but my buddy is in town... it's gene's birthday today... we are gonna be "anGels":... im faRRah! .. and im gonna take it moment by moment..

reX.

baCk to reAliTy reX.