reX.'s raMbles!

tueS. - jaN. 9, 2001:

G R E E T I N G S Sagittarius

If people around you follow your mood, Sag, then everything should work out fine. Your day would be running smoothly if those around you didn't insist on falling apart. Deal with a crisis calmly and quickly. Things are often not as bad as they seem. Someone may be overreacting to something you said in jest. Smooth things out with them before the misunderstanding escalates. A strong sense of humanity is required. Try to be a little more understanding of other people's problems. Tonight, try to connect with someone on an intellectual rather than an emotional level. Sharing personal philosophies could result in a new friendship.

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awakening the dark waRm room .. the alarm clock started singing at eX.actly 6:30 am...

"well.. i ... tHink im going out of mY head... yes.. i tHInk im going out of mY head...

over you.... daRling you...

... i want you ... so .. badLy... eTc.. "

i stumbled into the kiTchen with tHree sLeepy kiTTs... well... looks like it's too eARly for eVen mS. coSmos... ! ..heh! . sHe will wake onCe she hears tHat caN oPen... and i will wake oncE i get that first wiff of catfood... soBering.. and so is the cold in this kitcHen! .. bRRRR! ... wintery... tHe oVen gets sPecial permission in the heaTing process tHIs morn..

but my paSSion wHas for coffy this morning... and getting up early.. for the first time in weeks... iV'e got the energy to get up and get going... not that i haVent wanted to in the last few weeks.. i didnt subcumb to the holiday depression virus... no.. but wHas real layed up with a stomach infection... i think caused by the seCond flu i got in deCember... which might have been food poisening... (and i thought i wHas getting better in the kitchen! yeeeks!).. i realized last week tHat it would do good to supply doctors with cystal balls so tHey can figure tHIngs out better...wouldnt mind having one of those at home too.. heh! ..

so im up... watching britney spears ripping off her dress left over from the nite before when she made 8 costume cHanges... my litte tv in the kiTchen brings me the most imporant stuff first thing in the morn wHen im sipping my coffy to reality...tHis is now the year 2001... and i feel like i have just come out off a space sHip or something.. i stand there in the morning gLow of the tv..soaking in the neW year... the kitts munching tHIer potent bReakfast... and tHInk.. "i haD that moVe ... wHay before bRit"..

liFe is a constant costume cHange...

a new routine has entered mY life.. my morning baTh.. actually i have had to take three baths a day lately... perscribed by the crystal ball of tHat cute surgean of last week.. tHIs morn.. i got to caTch cHristian's sHow on gaybc and dugg how i felt like he became my live-in roomate ranting in the other room.. and amused by his riffs.. (is riff a word? i guess it is wHen you take moTrin with your coFFy.. ).. i haVe to send him that pie crust recipe... daMn.. im so behind... on eVerything...

tHIs health thing has been bugging me .. but finally got a grip of what wHas goin' on wHen i went into the urgent care center last tuesday... i waited till after new years.. cause i knew it would be crazy .. and didnt want to spend my new years in a waiting room.. for 12 hours totally uncomfortable.. and with the possible chance of seeing blood or something.. since it wHas a crazy kinda nite.. and those kind of chances are taken when you enter emergency rooms.. my tollerence for blood tHese days has gone wHay down... i shut my eyes.. sometimes even during itchy and scratchy on the simpson's ... oZ. is only bearable beCause onCe in aWhile you get to see a hot black man take a piss ... heh! ..

rang in the new year instead on my couch of sHame... and had a perfect host for the evening.. there wHas a goD! .. there wHas alfred hitchcock on tv.. all weekend... a marathon of his presentations... a reminder and a saVoir... a message from al about wHat this neX.t year wHas going to be all about.. i awoke at 12:00 from the sounds of the foggy fireworks here in sf.. one hand was still grasping the romote from taping my faV.. supensfull guy.. my other reached for the cHeap cHampiange tHat geNe and i had toasted from earlier in the eVe.. poured myself another sip.. and toasted the kitts who were a little freaked from the fireworks.. but not enough to get up... from pinning me down.. on the couch... our new years resolution? ... i popped another ib profrine... took my first drink off the new year.. and annouced i would deal with this new years tHIng later...

so now tHat iM weaning myself off of vicadane and motrin.. and takin' the caffine instead.. i sit and start to finely heal in another wHay... seemed like the year 2000 wHas about finding alot of oVer-looked wounds..tHat had been building up... ripping them out.. bleeding all over the place..yelling and sCreaming from the pain... and now that all the infections have been ex.posed..and have counted the wounds... 2001 .. means to heal and to sTart really following the soul and body down a healthy path..

no more blood.. i hate blood.. you know..

any pain i feel now will be a different type of pain... it will be a healing pain... almost like the pain that you get from doing too much at the gym.. (is gYm a word? .. im not too familar with it)..

"out of my head.. over .. you ..going out of my head.. over you... .

... daY and nite.. nite and daY... "

iM the fortunate soul wHo will be stuck with tHat song in my head all day till tomma wHen my alarm sings another song...i would have prefered the sergio mendez version... but this one is not so baD.. tHere are worse songs out there tHat you could be sTuck with...

haPPy 2001! ..

xx

reX.

 

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