reX.'s
raMbles! . . .
saTur.daY.
deC.. 1st 2001
G
R E E T I N G S Sagittarius
You
don't really have to be face-to-face with someone
in order to see eye-to-eye with them. Remote affiliations
are much more flexible than physical partnerships
right now. If you must adapt and change shape to follow
an opportunity that's slipping through the cracks,
then so be it. You may not be 100 percent satisfied,
but neither are you bored. Avoid talking about something
this evening if you have no intention of following
up on it -- you don't want to get a reputation as
a tease.
(
oH. pLuessse! my reputation as a "tease"
is alreaD.y taunted and tainted out there in reputation-land..
it's my naTural maKe-up to be a teaSe.. and i may
not follow it up ..cause i maY cHange my miNd. and
do something .. BETTER.. heh! .. tHat's wHat MAKes
me a gooD. tease... is that i can justify.. tHat cHange
of heart.. in many meThods of translations.. we eVolved
baBy.! )
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- woRld aides
day!
- daD.'s
birThday! . mann.. the old reX.ster number 1 must be
gettin' pRetty old by now.. wonder wHat tHe old mann..
looks like..? be funKy to see hiM.. cause it would be
a preview of me in a wHay.. i just imagine hiM. instead
and send hiM. a mental happy birthday like i always
do.
a coWpoKe hugg...
11:41 am
i
leaRned what DOM finally meant...
and it buRst
my reaLity woRld bubble that there were NOT so many
"doM"inate older men out there as i oRiginally
tHOught.. (sigh.!) wHat you learn from "dirTy old
men"!!!.. heh! .. tHank goD.! cause i will be there
soon enuff and need to know wHat to do! LOL!
BUT..!
with so many years of thinkin' that there were so many
doMinate older men out there.. it's gonna take some
time to cHange that wHay of tHinkin.. i have my dReams
and imagination.. and wHatever my reaLity is.. as long
as i aint huRtin' no one.. caN. be defined by my "beliefs"
.. and be reaL..
if we believe
hard enuff it becomes real.. right? . click my heels
tHRee times and say "tHRer's no place like a doMinate
daddy!" .
soMetimes..
but then there is the haRd-hiTTin' realiTies of liFe..
and wHen
your hit with one of thse things.. no matter how much
you believe in soMething you cant cHange the physical
realiTy.. that something in your little menTal reaLity
world HAS cHanged..
it can be
such a dRain to compensate for that cHange.. epspecially
if it's one that you dont want to incorporate in your
reaLity world.. no matter how hard i believe there are
dominate daddys.. out ther.e ... the reaLity is that
im still alone without one.. (siGh.)
eVen the
good cHanges... the ones we know that will help us confirm
our beliefs and reaLity..seeM. to also take thier toll..
so either
wHay..
youre fuCked..
heh!
cHange..
motha .. fuCker.. cHange..
soMeone has
to.. i keep doin' it .. and wonder wHy? ..
do i really
love you.. ? or am i in loVe with the belief of wHat
i tHink you are? .. neVer realiZed.. neVer touched..
you tHInk
u can aVoid me all your life by just not aknowledgin'
me?
i KNOW you
tHink of me.. and hear me.. i am parT of you ..
i aM..
you...
i
see a coWpoKe.. in my dReams.. now.. pokin' around..
some caTus dude raNch .. lonely.. but finds companigns
with his dREams.. isolated from the world but connected
with other worldly souls through hiS. sPirits and tHOughts..
tHe sTars
and mooN. in the desert sinG to hiM. and makes his sPirits
laugh.. making up a meloD.y of it's own.. and he tuNes
his gRoove up .. up past the stArs .. tHrough tHe coZ.mos..
stRiaght through to heaven.. to tHe cReator. directly..
"let
me talk to the BIG guy!" .. i hear hes been feeling
doWn.. i hear he is losing faith in hiM.self..
eVen goD.
has his bad days im sure.. and could use a coW.poke
hug..
heh!
