reX.'s
raMbles! . . .
moN.day.
oCtober 1st 2001
G
R E E T I N G S Sagittarius
There
is a lot of masculine energy surrounding you, which
means you
are ready to put up a fight for what you want. It's
a friendly
competition and a quick race for the finish line.
Your results are
measured in your creative or productive output, and
of course the
love that you generate. All ages are welcome, and
no one asks for
your ID. Take responsibility for yourself and no one
else tonight.
(
leT the masculine energy flow mann! .. i need the
sTrength for the fight.. but i doubt tHis is gonna
be a "quick" race... my responsibility ..
yes.. for myself.. and my tRibes)
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ok...
loVe you.. bYe-bYe! ...
1:10
am
tHe
day before...
it's the
day beFore the moVe! theres still too much to do - how
am i eVer gonna recover from this? so many open-ends
tHat will be seVered!
pensiVe paNic!
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8:43 am
morning sHIne ...
it's the last day ...
well... before everything is removed ... sitting here
in my living room in the reD. cHair with the kiTTs bathin'
in the sun ... looks like another hot day
tHis time... oCtober is my faVorite time here in sf...
we get warmer as everyone else gets colder
im tryin' to remember this ...
tHis moment...
how i felt in the mornings wHen my iNNer tRibe and
the caSa woke up... how beautiful it wHas with the sun
pounding in ... my pLants diggin' the morn sun feast
and kiTTs moVing to stay in the sun spots as they travel
accross the room...
" it's the last day gurls " ... soak up the
sf sun ... cause in just about a day .. you will be
absorbing your morning sHine...
somewHere new...
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3:02
pm
"
hi .. puPPy doGGy head! "
is the quote
for today ... as well as :
" ok..
loVe you.. bye-bye "
- the
baby wHo calls his moM. "lady" from the animaniacs
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geNe and
wHitefeather are on thier wHay over here ...
WF made some
pasta and sauce and geNe is bringing me a fresh sTock
of newspapers to wRap up the rest of the kNic-kNacs
in the living room
gonna
go tHrought the sCary closet and my books in the lounge...
pack away my office stuff tomma and think im pretty
much set.. ( right! - i bluff! im no-wHere near ready
for this horrible unavoidable task )
im feeling
a little achy again and just cant wait to get to moM.'s
wHere i can settle with the kiTTs and focus on my body
and health...
i cant do
that here...
anymore...
eVen if i
did win the battle... it would kill me..
tHe buZZer
just ranG... geNe is here to help pack! .. tHank god!
.. i need help.
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3:58 pm
im
invisable .. damN it !! ...
cLam just
called and offered me diNNer again... but i already
have my caSa full - WF, geNe and his fRiend angel..
(hmmm!)
enuff
people .. if not TOO many for me right now... i feel
sTressed.. i hurt.. feeling siC. and wish i could dissapear..
oR turn invisable .. like mZ. coSmos does sometimes..
sHe sits in the rooM. with you .. and pretends she is
invisable.. and if you come up and pet her.. sHe gets
pissed and bites ya..
" heY..!
donT touch me! .. cant you tell im invisable? "
i respect
that now.. of her.. wHen sHe has that "im invisable..
damn it!" look in her eYes..
i
feel like we are about ready to pull the plug on a close
fRiend who is hooked up and dependant to a life support
machine.. repecting thier wish to not live that wHay..
cLam offered
me a rooM. if i need it..
sWeet man..
i love you too.. onCe im healed enuff.. i will think
about the paths i have.. but for now.. i am in survival
moDe.. and if i can make it through the next day or
so.. without colapsing from this flu.. or wHatever it
is.. i will be doin' REAL good..
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moRe
visions ...
eVen
moRe visions
